A slice of my Process

I am having a hard time accepting my fear.

Having just spent a week nearly free of fear makes me even more fearful of the fear!

I think it might be easier if I didn't have to explain and yet, nobody has asked for an explanation.

What would happen if I just announced "I'm scared today! I feel like I need to protect myself just allofasudden and that is all." Could I accept that reality if all the world looked up, said, "Cool," and went back to doing/being?

If Mike said, "I wish you felt better." Would I be able to say, "oh, it is what it is..." and keep going, keep allowing this feeling to Be?

I wish on one hand that I had nothing else to do, so that I could sequester myself away and write and meditate. Yet on the other hand, that seems fairly UNaccepting to me, yeah? Because I'd be trying to Free myself of the GLOOM!

So what if I went Into the GLOOM? And wrote about it and talked to it and gave it space and time and ACCEPTED it?

Holy Moly!

I think I just found my way through a bit of the Darkness!